Thursday, June 30, 2005

Iced Tea Sucks Rocks.

What a cool shot of the little one!  She was doing the Lipton Plunge.  Remember that stupid commercial?

So iced tea sucks.  Diet Coke it isn't.  I miss the sweet nectary fizzy goodness of my drug of choice.  I miss swishing it around a little in my mouth so the fizz doesn't burn going down.  I miss the burps.  I miss treating myself to a big a** Diet Coke from Sonic after a hard day's work.  (Sonic has the good ice.  So does the gas station by the office.  The ice makes the drink.  I'm obviously sicker than I thought.)  Its especially good with just a few lemon wedges thrown in.  Oh, man. 

I've been nursing this iced tea with lemon juice packages for three hours and its not tasting any better.  Its smarmy (a krisism meaning the wrong temperature and generally disgusting).  Room temperature, all ice melted, cool condensation on the outside of the cup gone.  And most of all...its not Diet Coke.  And it gives me hiccups.


The whiney stage.  That's what we're calling this phase of withdrawal. 

So yeah I'm trying iced tea.  I'm liking Dansani flavored water, with raspberry and lemon flavors, but I'm afraid they have nutrasweet too.  So, I'll stick to ice water with the good ice and a lemon wedge.  Its a very poor substitute.  Extremely poor.  Boring, even.

Many have suggested the little Crystal Light powder packs you can dump in a water bottle, or sugar free Koolaid - I'm gonna try those too, if they don't have the dreaded nutrasweet.  Help a girl out - if you know of anything that may come relatively close to my Nectar of the Gods...please let me know.

Darn me and my experimental inquisitive nature. Like Ahndrea said, I just wanted to  prove every stupid Diet Coke bashing study wrong with a resounding "HA!" and a big nasty Diet Coke-induced belch, fist raised and all.

Sigh.  <hiccup>

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Congratulations LeAna!!

Congratulations Le!!!  Best wishes for a wonderful life together.

Love you always...



Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Hi I'm Kris, and its been 24 hours since I had a Diet Coke.

<golf claps>

I don't know how long I can handle this.  We'll see if it lasts four whole days.  I want to prove to myself that I'm overweight and it has nothing to do with my addiction to diet coke.


Its hotter than a rat's butt in July here in beautiful downtown Albuquerque, NM..."but its a dry heat".  Whatever.  When your shoes melt to the asphalt, its hot.

Hot = grumpy women.  I feel sorry for you guys out there having to put up with us.  There's just something about the temperature rising that causes more slaps, bruises, raised voices and finger throwing.  Sorry everyone.


So my best friend is getting married this weekend, the dress is here (and I don't look like a giant sushi roll, thank gawd), and we're heading down the home stretch.  I know it'll be beautiful, despite her freakage, and even if its outside during the hottest part of the day in the middle of summer. 

JUST KIDDING it'll be beautiful.  I'm the totally supportive best friend, honest!  If nothing else, it'll be over and done with, and she'll be Mrs. LeAna Pickledude. (heh.  love you, Le.) 

Pictures will follow, if they're good.  That's the rule.  Crappy pictures don't get posted, unless its after my huge weight loss and its a "before" picture, with a caption under the "after" one saying "results not typical".  I swear I'll get there, and put that darn disclaimer there myself.


My body's doing strange things, speaking of weight loss.  I had the huge 5 lb weight gain two weeks ago, lost 3.6 lbs last week, and this week I lost/gained nothing.  The scale did not move, despite all the stuff I did.  SO, this week I'm eating more protein and bumping up some exercise and we'll see what happens.  The joys of plateaus.  I'm sick of saying I've lost 40 lbs.  I want to say I've lost 50 or 60.


I'm tempted to go the whole week without the Nectarof the Gods and see if that has any effect.  Like I said, we'll see how long I last.  (eeeek.)  I wonder if anyone else swore off D.C. after reading that article...

Any one else thirsty??

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Of COURSE fat people drink diet soda.

So I saw this study "Drink More Diet Soda, Gain More Weight" on AOL's Welcome Screen, just like everyone else, and I thought....HA!  THAT'S what it is!!  The smoking gun!!  I can now become Instant Pathetic Victim, and blame my problem on something else!!


I got to thinking about it, and after reading the results, I realized its pretty obvious that overweight people are more likely to drink diet soda.  We're not idiots.  If we can drink something that tastes sweet and relatively yummy for ZERO calories, of course we're gonna.  (Duh?)  Doesn't it make sense that if you're fat, you'll reach for the diet soda versus the 250 calorie Coke with all that sugar? 

That has to be a huge factor.  Honestly, there aren't many people out there as kooky as me - those who actually prefer the taste of the diet soda.  (I can't stand that gritty nasty feeling you get after drinking a regular coke.  Blech.)  One of my girlfriends switched from Dr. Pepper to Diet Dr. Pepper and jump started her diet.  She lost about 7 lbs doing that alone.  So there!

Besides, as my dad always said, the diet coke cancels the calories you've previously eaten.  The formula works thusly:

(1 Big Mac + 1 Large Fries + 1 Milkshake)/large amount of guilt + 1 Big A** Diet Coke = 0 Calories.

Obviously I'm kidding, but check out this quote from the article:  Fowler is quick to note that a study of this kind does not prove that diet soda causes obesity. More likely, she says, it shows that something linked to diet soda drinking is also linked to obesity. It could be like they say, that our bodies crave more calories when we're "tricked" out of them with diet foods.  That makes more sense. 

So, new study idea:  Let's take a Diet Cokeaholic, like me, and deprive them of their lifeblood for a six month period, ceteris paribus (without changing anything else), and see what happens.  (I'm currently starting to experience withdrawals just thinking about that as I type it.)  Let's just see if it has a direct impact on appetite and weight gain.

My one vice.  I've quit smoking, cut down on internet time, given up red meat, started exercising, joined Weight Watchers...I want to cling to that one vice.  The one semi-harmless thing that brings me so much joy.  Nectar of the Diet Coke.

I want PROOF, darnit. 

Logging off before thunderstorm zaps another entry...


Happy Tuesday!!

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Monday Photo Shoot: RED

Your Monday Photo Shoot: Picture something red. Show it to us.

Yeah, so I took another shot of the roses in my yard.  I love these, because they remind me of Alice in Wonderland "painting the roses red". 

So there's my contribution - enjoy!


pssst - told ya it'd be more positive today. 

Happy Tuesday!!!

Monday, June 13, 2005


Also taken in my yard.  I don't know why I was compelled to take this shot, but I like it.  For some reason, it conveys a feeling of hope.

As many of my regular readers know, I use this page to vent, celebrate, share, and do whatever else I feel like, because its my place.  This is therapy for me in a removed sort of way, and its been a blessing to have a place to do whatever I want.

Given that, I want to point out a few things I've learned over my almost 34 years (33 + 362 days) on this planet.  I'm going to try to do this with tact.  I'm sure you'll let me know if I succeeded.  This is me venting in a constructive way.  (I hope.)

Most importantly, I've learned that feelings are never "wrong".  Everyone's entitled to them.  If I feel a certain way, it is never "wrong".  I feel it, and therefore its valid.  I may have taken something wrong, and therefore I misunderstood whatever it was, but I'm still entitled to feel.  I'm also entitled to express any feeling I may have, whether its here, or at home, with friends, or in my little head.

I've learned that life is very short, and very precious, and you will miss people close to you very very much when they're gone.  Cherish each moment.

I've learned that forgiveness isn't easy, but its necessary.  Its great to get to the bygones stage, if possible. (big if)

I've learned that while you should forgive people, its important not to forget.  There's always a lesson.

I've learned that family and loved ones will be the very first to hurt or take advantage of you, because they know you love them, trust them, and will forgive them for whatever they do.  This includes blood relatives, inlaws and friends.  They will do very tacky snarfy things and expect youto turn the other way.  They will turn their backs on you when you need them, but expect you to be right there when they need you.  Given that, they can always count on me to be right here, ready to do the right thing, no matter what.

In that, I've learned that just because other people are jerks doesn't mean you have to be.  (Thanks Jim G. for that one.)

I've learned that its important to never give up.  Keep going.  Keep trying.  Keep doing.  Someday you'll get it right.

I've learned that you will discover who your true friends, loved ones, and fans are when something really bad happens to you.  Thank you for always being here.  You know who you are.

I've learned that love is expressed in many ways.  It may be to identify an addictive behavior and refuse to participate.  It may be to tell a third party something very personal in order to get help for a loved one.  It may be to remove yourself from a situation.  It may be providing a shoulder to cry on.  It may be an e-mail.  It may be a hug, a card, flowers, a diamond ring...or in my case, it may be your husband making your lunch for you to take to work.  (love you sweetie)

I've learned you have to take everything with a truckload of salt.  You have to let things roll off, and constantly ask yourself "How important is it?"

I've also learned that everything happens for a reason.  This was the hardest lesson learned, I think.   It was hard because it was painful, and the road getting here was incredibly bumpy and sometimes non-existant.  I owe everything to that journey, good and bad, and I'm glad I had those experiences.

Finally, I've learned you have to let go.  I'm still working on that one.  I know its important, but I'm having a hard time doing it.  I know that if I don't do it, I'll continue to be hurt and it'll take longer to heal,but its necessary.  Its time. 


I've had a big blow dealt to me today, and I'm going to try very hard not to give any credit to the individual who tried once again to bring me down.  I'm not going to give this person one more minute of my time or energy, because its mine and I have better things to do.  I'm getting stronger, more independent and better, and all the credit for getting here belongs to me.

This year is gonna be even more awesome than last year, and that's really something.

Thank you for giving me this place to vent, speak my mind, and be me.  More positive stuff to come.


Sunday, June 12, 2005

Happy Sunday & My First Saturday Six

What an awesome rose, huh!  I took this in my yard today.  I felt the urge to prune rosebushes, and I have the scratches, puncture wounds and owies to prove it.  I actually had a branch snap back and smack me in the face, thorns and all.  Owey.  I've realized this sort of comedy routine is the story of my life.  I can't ever do anything with a normal outcome, whether its pruning rosebushes, searching for a job, romance or parenting.  Everything has to have a punchline.  Sometimes that's annoying.


Breaking news:  Aileen's at her new home, settled and happy.  I couldn't be happier either.  She made it!!


Stupid tourist trick of the week:  I was stopped in the Wal-Mart and asked, "We saw some white stuff on the top of the mountain range.  What is that stuff?"

I replied, "Snow."  I got the deer in headlights look.

(What else would it have been?!?  Now I'm wondering what THEY thought it was...??  booga booga)


My First Attempt at Patrick's Saturday Six:

1. When was the last time you looked your significant other in the eye and told him or her how much they mean to you?

    Every single day. 

2. Which business do you have the longest continuous relationship with:  your bank, your auto insurance provider, your home telephone provider, your cellular phone provider, or your cable company?  How long have you been with them?

    Home telephone.  Its a love/hate relationship, mostly involving hate.  Effing Qwest.

3. What is the mostembarrassing question you've ever been asked?

    How much do you weigh??

4. You have the ability to snap your fingers and be instantly transported to one of three places whenever you wish to go there.  Which three places would you select as your destinations?

    1. New Orleans!!!!!!!!!!!!
    2. Someplace where I can see the ocean, because I never have.
    3. Egypt

5. Last week, the Reader's Choice question asked you to identify your favorite movie line.  Later this month, the American Film Institute will list the 100 Greatest Movie Lines of all time.  Which one do you expect to win?

"They used to be fat and juicy, and now they're twisted. They had their lives stolen. Well, they taste sweet, but really they're just humiliated grapes. I can't say I'm a big supporter of the raisin council."

"Did you see those, those raisins on TV? The ones that sing and dance and stuff?"

"They scare me."

"Yeah, me too."

"It's sick, the commercial people make them sing and dance so people will eat them."

"It's a shame about raisins."



--Sam & Joon, on raisins, from Benny & Joon.  No, I don't expect it to win, I'm just saying it should.

6. You are given the gift of an original oil painting by any famous artist.  What painting would you choose and why?

Starry Night by Van Gogh, because its amazing, and because you said I could pick any one I wanted.


My life's so uneventful right now (thank GAWD) that's all I've got.  Right now I'm choosing to live vicariously through my friends who actually HAVE a life, and enjoying uneventful bliss.  Sometimes peace and calm is a good thing.


Happy Sunday!

Now for a nap...

Tuesday, June 7, 2005


First off, I have to mention that I have the most awesome husband in the whole entire universe.  Either that or he's really really well-trained.  Naw, he's awesome.

Tonight was the usual Weight Watchers meeting, and I gained a whopping 5 lbs in one week.  This has got to be amazing in itself.  You would have to consume like 4,000 calories a day to gain 5 pounds in a week, and I did not.  Trust me, I might have enjoyed 4,000 calories a day.  I did not partake in such caloric bliss.  I was a pretty good girl.  The caverns alone were like a 5-7 mile deal, plus I swam each day we were home, and hiked around.  I so deserved to see a loss, or no change, or something less horrific this week.  I know its probably water retention.  Ah, the joys of being female.

ANYWAY, so I called my Louie to report my crappy news, because that's what I do.  We celebrate together, he talks me down when I'm angry, and he pulls me up when I'm sad, and vice versa.  You know, the whole marriage/best friend thing.  Anyway, so I call him to tell him what a COW his wife is, and you know what he says??

"Don't worry mija, next week will be better.  Its probably retaining water or something, no?  And besides..."

(...this is why this man rocks my world...)

"I love every inch, every pound.  I love you either way."



Ok so I'm missing Aileen terribly.  I wish she'd get the heck settled already.  We missed each other as she was driving through - I was in Carlsbad 750 feet underground I think.  Now I have an excuse to go to Vegas, but I'm still suffering from Aileen withdrawals. 



Finally, my extremely sexy Aussie friend Drew sent me this article, about a former Hooters waitress who decided to sue after she felt she was tricked by her boss.  Apparently there was an incentive promotion going on where if you sold enough beer, you would get a new Toyota. 

...or so she thought.

Instead she was given a "toy Yoda".  A $40 replica of the little green guy from Star Wars. 

Get it?  I do.  Not funny.  She didn't think so either. 

Apparently the restaurant regularly had these sort of incentive deals for their employees, with real actual prizes.  So she sued the owners of the restaurant, alleging breach of contract and fraudulent misrepresentation. In the suit, she is asking for the cost of a new ACTUAL Toyota.

I hope she wins.


I'm back at work.  Darnit.  I lost my joy when the alarm went off at dark thirty Monday morning.  I know, I'm working on the attitude as we speak.  Vacations are never long enough.


I guess that's it for now. 

Happy Tuesday!!

Sunday, June 5, 2005

Roadtrip, Part Deux

I had to borrow these images from the official site, because dorkbrain left her camera in her car (which stayed in Albuquerque).  Anyway, if anyone for whatever reason decides to visit New Mexico at some point in their lives, Carlsbad Caverns is a must see.  I was born and raised here and this was my first trip - I wish I would have gone long ago, because its simply amazing.

The story goes that 16 year old Jim White found this cave in 1898 after seeing the bats fly out in the evening.  He was a rancher at the time, and he thought he was seeing smoke.  For those of you that don't know, if you're a rancher and you see smoke, you investigate, because usually its grazing land that's burning.  Anyway, he went down and started exploring by candlelight or kerosene lamp, and he'd mark his trail by burning a mark with his lamp.  As I told Emily, you'd either have to be very brave, or a new level of stupid to lower yourself into complete darkness 750 feet down.

You take this elevator 750 feet underground, and enter this ginormous, beautiful cave with unbelievable formations.  Its just simply, amazing.

We took a guided tour and were able to experience some of the deeper caves, and our guide shut all the lights off so we could understand what the natural state of the caves was like.  Talk about "advanced darkness".  Spongebob said it perfectly.  You couldn't see your hand in front of your face.

There was a scenic byway to take on the way back down the hill, and since we were in the Jeep I took it.  Boy was everyone irritated.  I guess they just don't appreciate my sense of adventure.  Maybe it was the fact that they all had to pee, and going over all those bumps off-roading wasn't exactly fun...who knows.  We saw some incredible views from that road, and I ignored the grouching and grumbling.

Louie pooped out, so about mid-afternoon we dropped him (and the dogs) off at the hotel and headed back to the caves.  We stopped at White's City to check out the old town and the museum (creepy, surreal, dead people, enough said - we got out of there quick), bought some cheesy souvenirs, and went back up to the cave entrance.

We toured the big room once more, which amounts to about a mile and a half of walking up and down paved trails, and marveled at nature.  We headed back up to the natural cave entrance and waited for the evening bat flight.  Bats are kinda stinky, we discovered, but they're cute.  Little tiny things.

Next time, I'll bring the camera.

Friday, June 3, 2005

Holy Freakin' Roadtrip, Batman.

So we've traveled over 700 miles in the past week, and we had a BLAST. 

First we went "up north" to Canjilon, New Mexico, to visit some of Louie's family and Alberto's grave.  Something about that mountain air does a soul good.  I think Louie was so fortunate to have grown up in such a beautiful area.

There's a little church in front of the graveyard that has the coolest hand carved sculpture of Jesus and Mary.  Louie told me a story to go with it - apparently when he was a small child, everyone participated in "Penetentes", where they would cause physical harm to their bodies with barbs and whips for the few days leading up to Easter each year, and it all took place at this little church near the graveyard.  It terrified him as a child, seeing these grownups literally mame themselves during this event.  Maybe next year I can actually get down from the car to get a better shot...

Finally, these cliffs inspired one Georgia O'Keefe to paint them from a spot near the Ghost Ranch...

Aren't the colors amazing?  No wonder she was so inspired.  Anyway, we ended up coming home and resting before we went "down south" to beautiful downtown Carlsbad, New Mexico to see the caverns. 

Guess who FORGOT HER FREAKING CAMERA in the car.  YEP!  I'll post more about that trip shortly.  Part Deux coming soon...